The Drifter (Tonight)

June 12

I’m in an impossible situation here with my neighbor and even asking God to deal with him somehow hasn’t changed anything.

Information I read about neighbor harassment says to gather, but I already did that,and nobody wanted to see it. I held up my phone camera, pointed it at the wall and recorded his actions on several occasions. I quit doing it because it takes up memory, nobody cares to look at them. Not the landlord or the police. And he is just too random when choosing to hit the wall or yell thru it at me. He even knocks on my door now with onlooking hallway cameras and he is getting away with it because he isn’t being punished …

So clearly reporting him anymore is useless. He just lies and keeps right on going. Unfortunately the only actions left for me to take would just get me thrown out or arrested. That’s how the law works. The person who is driven to retaliate because no one does anything is the one who gets into trouble …

And constantly going to the police will also lead to me being thrown out as well …

My headphones only block so much. When he hits the wall,my whole room shakes.

I’ve lived up here for over 2 years causing no trouble. There is no place for me to go except back on the road to be homeless in Florida again.

I’ve seen residents up here get tossed for far less, and yet because this so something that’s disturbing only me, it isn’t being stopped. That’s the typical story of how my life goes.

This guy brags or lies to others in the hall about his behavior and they take his side …

I need someplace else to go. But of course having lost yet another job thru the temp agency, I don’t have any source of income once again.

So if the landlords don’t stop him, the law doesn’t stop him, and prayer has neither stopped him nor helped to improve my living or financial circumstances …

Becoming a drifter for the 4th time like I was considering just over a month ago when I was jobless is all I’m left with … and I don’t want to do that either. However my kids have no idea I exist because of my previous homeless experiences, so why does it matter anymore?

Heading south west, I might be better off the way things are looking, and I certainly don’t wish to pay rent to keep staying here like this …

Fake Life June 9th

 

I’ve asked prayer for my health. I’ve asked prayer for my neighbor. I’ve sked prayer for my job and living situation and I’ve asked prayer in the past over my marriages. Yet nothing really improves. My recent job was perfect enough to keep me satisfied and I lost that because I got too comfortable.

I truly believe the only reason I’ve lasted over this bar for more than 2 stressful, painstaking years is because I’ve never felt comfortable here. I’m always on edge and can never relax. I’ve rarely been to spend any time praying.

My headphones drown out everything this neighbor does until he decides to hit the wall. I can both hear and feel that from across my room every time he does it.

I have too many needs. I’m too desperate. I’m about to hit the road. It’s no easier living like I am now than it was being homeless. So what difference does it make … Waiting on a job agency to get me a new job every couple months is not worth it to keep living in these conditions. I’ve had no fortune getting hired directly anywhere. If it was for a family and household than I would endure it, but as things are, there is no reason or rhyme to it …

My kids are all living lies. So what does that make my life?

 

Current Situation Since May 27

So I haven’t posted much recently, and I usually only ask for prayer regarding my health. I can still use that. However this is about my neighbor’s behavior ever since I started my current job. In the last few weeks he has been utterly disrespectful of the fact that I work first shift. He bangs on the wall, blasts his music, turns up the bass, yells thru the wall and harasses me. I don’t react to him, but ignoring him hasn’t made him stop. The owners know about it. If anything has been said to him, he doesn’t care. And I know they can also feel his bass downstairs as well. I’m the only room next to his so its not affecting anyone else. If it was, he would have been thrown out already … So I need prayer to resolve this because any action or reaction on my part will only get me in trouble. Including involving the police. I’ve tried during the last 2 years to find somewhere else to live where I have my bathroom again. Clearly I’m stuck here unless I can save the money to leave and go somewhere warm again. I have no reason to keep staying in this cold state since my 2nd marriage ended. I’ve been alone and completely miserable staying over this bar for the last 2 years. The neighbors are worse than the bar. I need a way out and into better living circumstances … I miss my loved ones, but I also having a porch and a yard …

June 3rd

So update on this. Nothing has changed. I’ve even got recorded evidence of his behavior and deliberate harassment. I’m barely getting out of bed for work. Calling the police in this building will just get me thrown out … I almost came to blows with him today and other people are taking his side. I could potentially get thrown out just for complaining again and I still have to pay rent this week to keep living in these conditions

June 8th

Well to add to the stress of a bad neighbor, I just got dropped from a job I actually liked and was looking forward to being directly hired on. Stories were completely made up likely because one person had an issue with me. I tried getting the job back to no avail …